acheapthrill.

fin.

2008-03-11T08:57:00.000-07:00

I think i'm completely over the blog-phase and I can confidently say that this third blog of mine, is my last.

Right now, i'm more than satisfied with everything. Except maybe the fact that you guys deserved better.

But i somehow know, we're all going to be okay. (:

so with all my love,
Shubha.

surprise! i updated. pun very much intended.

2007-12-12T05:31:00.000-08:00

i know ive been a complete bitch by refusing to update. now that facebook's in, i come visit my own blog barely once a week.

anyway, i had the BEST birthday of my life. no really. it was absolutely fantastic. i dont think ive been so surprised in my entire life. i dont know how to thank all of you who turned up enough because it really meant the world to me. so it all started with my grandad making an announcement that "we're all going to a very posh restaurant tomorrow so everyone must be well-dressed". i honestly should have know better especially after,

1) my family spending time taking out their clothes from one pm on that day and doing manicures and facials. they usually just iron something pretty and slip it on.
2) mum and sumyutha having private phone conversations without me as if THEY were good friends
3) dash and my sister becoming best friends
4) mom and dad talking in the kitchen about a cake until i walked in and she gave dad a 'zip' signal
5) my uncle and grandad argueing where we should go for dinner when my uncle had already dropped my parents, aunt and sis to the designated place [they went in the first batch, i was in the second]
6) the chinablacks nervous stares everytime i said "ill see you on monday" when they knew they were going to see me on sunday.

after typing this list out, i officially admit, i am clueless and blur. ah well. good for you surprise planners aye?

so while i expected to go to some posh restaurant to have a quiet dinner with my family, i ended up being made a victim of a SPLENDID surprise party. of course, i was a very happy victim. (: a surprised one too.

a very surprised me, greeted by my closest friends and family. with the camera man. i swear. i felt like an indian bride walking down the aisle. i kept thinking of bend it like beckham where she said "look down. indian brides arnt supposed to smile. you'll ruin the bloody video".

the crowd during sam's wonderful speech.

i was reeeeely happy. (: i felt like a kid in her favourite candy store.

the NJ table.

sam, i really dont know what my mum would have done without you coordinating all my friends, especially during and after the As. and of course all that help from Kat. thank you so much. you know i love you. and its not the usual 'i love you' that i say to everyone. i really mean it. (:
the speech, hats off to you babe. i really dont know how you came up with that many things to say. i know you were lying through your teeth, but still, it meant alot. <3<3<3

i love my friends. dont you think ive got gorgeous friends? i swear.

the AC table with a few njcians. (:

so yeah, as you can see. i couldnt have asked for more. its a pity YOU angmoh assholes were overseas or you'd have been there as well. but you should know that i missed you loads and cant wait for your return which will be eons later.

a special thank you to my family for being the bestest family around. i dont know what id do without you. i LOVE being mahawar. hahaha.

i was stunned. i loved every second of that night. my grandad said to me "it was one of the happiest days of my life".

it was mine too. thank you so much. you have no idea how blessed i feel. (: <3

at subway. yeah, we ate at subway all glammed up.

i still like this picture of you phoebs. haha.

PRETTY SAM. thank goodness you got ready at the hotel room. i think you'd agree. (:

zhang you so sexy. hahahhahahah.

cuba libre. we've always wanted to go there. funny how we went on a day where the band dint play and neither did they serve any food. ha.

ive been going out non-stop. and oh, i finally finished reading harry potter 6. yeah, 6. im going to embark on 7. for those of you who dont know, number 5 [the order of the phoenix] completely put me off reading. as a result, i dint read a single book throughout JC save for the first chapter of 'can asian's think' by kishore mahbubani. guess what? number 6 [the half blood prince] has got me hooked again. hahha. ive got a whole list of books im yearning to read now. from chick books such as 'a girl for all seasons' by camilla morton to inspiring shit like 'leaving microsoft to change the world' by john wood. and of course trump's new book. (: i almost forgot how much i used to love reading.

just as a closing thought. a paragraph from harry potter 6 [i know, quoting from HP is pretty sad] really struck a chord.

"There is a difference between being dragged into the arena to face a battle to death and walking into the arena with your head held high. Some people, would say that there is little to choose between the two ways but i think, there is all the difference in the world"

i believe it applies to all of us, if we really think about it. sure, we're not quite facing death [at least we hope] but our difficulties and troubles are burden enough to bear. i suppose we could only keep our chin-up, and do what we believe to be right, with a smile no matter what the outcome.

okay, emo-talk over. its post As. im supposed to be happy. no wait. i am happy. i dont remember being more elated in a long long time.
(: (: (: (: (:

2007-12-01T21:33:00.000-08:00

Met the chinablacks after the SATS paper. yes, im done for good with the SATS. i just hope i do decently enough. Anyway, the 3 of them made their way specially down on a saturday just to celebrate kat's and my birthday. thanks guys. (: you know i loved it.

been doing alot of things ever since the As ended. for starters, i havnt touched a pen yet. im not kidding. i wouldnt have had to lift a pencil save for SATS. but that's over as well. haha. Ive been reading the newspapers. i suppose that would have been more helpful before GP but ah well. i know what movies are going on unlike before when i dint have a clue. speaking of which, caught game plan and dhan dhana dhan goal. the former was a family movie and omg the rock has a 10 million dollar smile. the latter was even more satisfying. especially with john abrahams short hair. i think he'd be india's version of christiano ronaldo if he were to join the india football team [hahahahhahaha. dont even get me started on their standard]. ive been catching up with friends from all over. and even my sister. and now its going to be even better with prom coming up as well as LOTS of partying given my legal status.

the main purpose of this post was to thank EVERYONE who wished me. i felt so loved on friday and saturday. seriously. ALL the sms's, calls, friendster comments, fb wallposts, fb messages, long-distance calls, flowers in the mail, presents, meet-ups, cakes, lunches and pictures. thank you for EVERYTHING.

i like being 18. ive been telling everyone how when i buy a drink from now or enter a club, im going to SHOVE my ID into the bouncer's/bartender's face. :D

my favourite filipino.

2007-12-01T05:35:00.000-08:00

Katlyn Krista Batuigas Lagumbye.
Crazy. Whacky. Stoned. Emotionfull. Emotionless. Practical. Gorgeous. Actcute. THE LOVE.

We've been practically attached to each other for 1 year and 9 months. same class, same clique, same CCA, same everything. yeah. im pretty sick of you i guess. did i mention how glad i was that we're done with JC?

I mean, i used to have to put up with this.

ohhhh. and waking you up during every lecture and tutorial was pure torture.

and dont even get me started on pictures. you put up UNGLAM pictures of me. its my turn bitch. here's ONE.

and ANOTHER.

damn, i cant find any others. because you're too bloody goddamn pretty. i loved being inseparable during the 2 years. its funny how we'd always count on each other during lessons or whatever to 'take note of the details' but we'd both end up being stoned and clueless about EVERYTHING.

all we did was plug in our ipods, listen to emo songs and eat rojak. we did ALOT of things actually. you were my do-random-crazy-things-that-noone else-would-do-partner. ill never forget climbing into and out of school via the gate just for kicks. how we stayed back to do the banner. throwing ourselves on the windows of buses in an attempt to scare people on the street. endless whining about grades and getting to the US of A. playing more than words on the guitar. being your band's mikestand. our raindance/harharmahadev variations. coming up with names for particular guys in school. all our ridiculous strategies and plans *thinks of banner for mr-hot-smouldering-eyes. these are only several out of the infinite number of things we've done together.

you know, even though we never executed half our plans, it was making them that was so fun. you gave me a million and one reasons to laugh during all our 'planning sessions'. our ideas are absolutely insane but i love each one because im sure no one else could think of such whacky things to entertain themselves with.

this is such a typical expression of yours. the whole "what the fuck's going on" expression. Your total heck-care attitude to things you dont appreciate or to people you dont agree with really sets you apart. ive always loved the way you're so honest. you tell me straight to my face if you think im doing something off tangent and you never lie about how you feel. "i feel angry and pissed at everything and everyone around me". hahahahha. its these things that make you an even closer friend of mine.

afterall, we've vowed to become farmers if nothing works out for us aye? ive got your back hun. when we're ploughing in those fields under the scorching sun in the fields be it in philippines or in india, we're going to be inseparable then as well.

afterall, how could i ever lose touch with a girl who's such a good banger.

i think ive told you this. you're one of the prettiest filipinos ive ever seen with an even more beautiful personality.

so here's to you. and all of us, for all the excellent times we've had together. they've been priceless.

equally priceless is this ONE photo we've managed to capture, across our 2 years of attachment. how strange isnt it? but i remember this moment, in the coffeeclub. we were really happy, with not much to worry about. we've always been happy, even in school despite the occasional rants and tears. because this is practically our only picture together, i believe its special and its enough. hell, of course we're going to take tonnes of pictures together next week and once you get back next year. but this one makes me smile and i know it always will.

just this blog post will never be sufficient to voice everything. you know i love you too much.

happy birthday kat.

all the love.

2007-11-24T09:01:00.001-08:00

its a strange world we live in.
its a strange nation, india.

i was watching this documentary on discovery channel [surprise surprise] and i must say, it was really well done. great facts, images, realities showing us alot about the country.

its amazing how the spectrum is so wide ranging from the poorest of the poor to the wealthiest people.

while there's a lavishly decorated [by cheap labour] wedding going on in one of the five star hotels on one street, several streets parallel to that one, there's an equally significant, but a basic wedding, with far less diamonds and glam going on in a small temple between these cheap labourers and their to-be wifes, whom they probably have never seen/met before.

while there're corrupted priests and pundits indulging in drug, sex and alcohol, there're little aspiring boys, pure and holy, in rishikesh who're on their way in the belief that the world will indeed be a peaceful and sacred place, one day.

while there're five year old boys playing on their playstation in their mansions, again, several streets away there're five year old boys stringing flowers to sell in exchange for income during the month of diwali.

while there's a wealthy bride shopping for her 5 lack rupee 'lehenga', there's another woman, buying simple red cloth either readymade or to sew into a lehenga. and as she sew's this traditional gown, she's weaving together the dreams she sees for herself and her spouse.

while there're sons who dont do so well and get to be CEO's because their dad owns the company, there're those who buy books and study under the streetlamps in the hope that meritocracy will do them justice.

while one pollutes the holy ganges/ganga, another, prays to it and bathes in to to clense and purify himself.

there're so many inconsistancies which are unfair and unjust. its not about the numbers of people who're suffering from poverty. the numbers, are a mere indicator to rank countries and nations on the world scale. what matters more, is what the individual is going through. its so easy to say "he" is hungry. try saying "i", and it hurts.

but whatever it is, meera nair's narration summed it up,
"india's a land of hope".
i only pray this hope, is awarded one day. that day's not far i believe with the industrial progress india's seeing. yeah, its not going to happen tomorrow or anytime soon, but it'll come, eventually.

donald trump's new book's got the right spirit. "think big and kick ass". idealising and being hopeful's going to pay off, of course with action and committment.

its about time.

hot guy and hot girl

2007-11-23T20:57:00.000-08:00

A hot guy and a hot girl go to a restaurant.
The hot girl falls down, what does the hot guy say?

-->"shubha, are you okay?" hahhahahahhah.

okay, cheapthrill over. went for a party yesterday and shweta told me this which i found absolutely hilarious. of course i modified it a tad bit. ;)

2007-11-22T08:45:00.000-08:00

Hahaha. the things my friends do.

phoebs, the new jap pop princess in town.

us and our angles.

timbre. the band EIC is something. i saw the first indian lead singer of a band who has a good voice. i was reeely impressed. (: they opened the evening with bittersweet symphony which did it for me. (:

zhang! at modestos. can anyone look after her bunny rabbit called bun bun for her? she's going overseas and needs someone to look after it for a week.

chinablacks outing was really fun. (: it was great to just relax for a while and not have to worry about school. it was the FIRST ever one in two entire years that all six of us were there. imagine that. haha. but we're still good friends, im sure all six of us couldnt deny that.

and tseruey joined us as well! id put that picture up but you wouldnt want that, trust me.
all we did was go to this restaurant to eat, and then to that, to eat again. :S and ohh, we watched saawariya. i thought it was great. the rest hated it. talk about horrible taste. its such an innocent movie emphasizing on the raw emotions that people feel. too bad people *ahem dont appreciate such movies. haha.

finally met up with the acians after an eternity.

pretty amanda!

us and our angles, again.

that would be the mg girls. dash insisted she'd ruin the picture. silly girl.

steph looks gorgeous even in her uniform.

DASH. i never got a picture with her. but here she is anyway.
we went to subway because of the indians cravings. sat at the benches at Lido for the longest time and introduced them to bollywood music, which they liked fyi.
it felt good. (:

its so good exams are over. im finally catching up with friends i havnt seen in ages. now it feels as if all that hard work and studying was all worth it.

i totally dig this feeling.

IM ADDICTED TO TIMBRE.

post A levels have been fun. (: and there's still moreee to come.

NJC 2006-2007

2007-11-20T07:30:00.000-08:00

so i know this post is wayyyy overdue.

i bet you guys are tired reading stuff like "its been such a long journey" and "omg its overrr" and "its party time" etcetera.

you're going to have to go through it once more. haha.

remember that state of euphoria i talked about a couple of entries ago? its here. funny thing is, i felt it stronger than ever BEFORE my last paper than after [considering how the mcq went] but what the hell, its back again, and im so excited, for everything.
there're lunch lists, party promises, serene sunrises, movie marathons, dance dhammakas, food frenzies, slumber surprises, birthday bashes, baseball battings, pretty pictures and so many more things that're beckoning. yes, i made it a point to 'alliterate' everything.

i really feel like doing this, those who've gone through all these things will probably see this entry through till the end.

ill always remember, [us/we is relative here, you guys know who you are. (:]
- the beginnings of the bimbo clique
- the toothache problem and B1 and B2 during our first house session
- mekgunko and snurtle/monkeyboy and what was the other called again? tarzan?
- the mother fathers
- popping peanuts into our mouths and zhang beating me every damn time
- the vending machine
- cheating, or rather attempting to cheat the vending machine
- the orientation parties which we never missed
- calling ourselves golden brown
- bouncing to mr stereophones at orchard, you convincing me to skip everything that day
- skanky phone conversations
- going to hindi school with you
- jumping outside the toilet to scare the both of you but it came across as "woman in black randomly jumping across toilet" and us ending up in fits on the toilet floor
- dance
- staring up at the starless/starful sky after dance all sweaty and disgusting
- wanting to dress up in aluminium foil to scare people, pretending to be martians
- singing practices away
- the guitar, more than words
- supporting the mother fathers everytime they played [prom, how?]
- taking pictures with the old man at your house
- unglam pictures
- glam pictures
- the seniors
- the come clean session we regret happened till today
- emo brekkos sessions
- funtasia when the both of us stayed back to paint banners, and that hugeass cardboard sign that said "pasta" and that convincing 3D arrow you drew
- eating all the condensed milk and drinking the bitter cold tea after that
- yong tau foo
- being the worst CT rep EVER. HAHA.
- finding excuses to skip YLTC
- bruised knees
- melissa, omg, do you guys still remember who we used to call melissa?
- your council dilemmas and rantings which you eventually overcame. haha
- dholna
- wade robson, bang bang bang
- shoot bang marry
- the beach hut, "charlies angels"
- the birthday surprise for us, you burnt your hair, you lent us your house, you both played and sang "all about you", you jumped around and made us feel elated, you all made our day
- harold and kumar, please come again, thank you!

okay, so this was the bulk of last year. there's so much more its impossible i would have written everything but this is what i remember as of now. hahahha. im sorry but im so into this im going to completely continue and bring you into 2007.

- we got promoted to being mr dio's "charlies angels" hahahha.
- round tables, still, as orange as ever
- lignum beaver badges
- five people ran, five people got the positions, and the two of us werent part of it!
- mass run
- the efficiency gang
- SYF, i got up and sat down in the dance 21 times
- horrible knees, no skirts
- me falling flat on my face in the gym
- the pakistani's
- going to the airport not caring about any lessons we had
- you said "i think ****** has hot smouldering eyes", us, hysterical
- that day at madjacks, we thought it'd be an awesome year ahead
- march, april, may, worst three months of my life, besides for SYF
- learning a huge lesson ill never forget
- you guys, for never telling anyone what had happened for that one week
thank you, ill always know you all have my back. (:
- those messages
- common tests
- har har mahadev
- gold with honours with special mention
- the rooftop birthday celebration
- the roses from random people
- my round and round the building theory
- the three of us being notorious
- we got ME on our cert. !!!
- "happy birthday ******, come on over baby, you know you want to" im so sorry i cant remember what it was exactly, kill me for forgetting such an important detail
- results getting the better of us
- endless reflecting and whining. what would we have done without the round tables?
- buying the NJ jacket so that i go for prelims with the right attitude and ending up not wearing it at all
- pt's hug that changed everything
- hard kaur and ash king
- bombay
- mama caribbean, dancing barefoot in the pub
- chem consultations
- estivo outings
- mr neo almost giving up on us during math
- mr neo saying "you've improved" and me almost bursting out into tears. haha.
- the stats test, my first ever B for jc math
- 26, 25...18....10....5...0 days to Alevels
- the final countdown, us running in grey on that green hill with wind in our hair
- having no papers in the hall
- the good lucks, hugs, messages, all reinforcing the fact that the big As were actually here
- before the econs paper
- after the econs paper
- after chem P1
- uhhh, "is this vegetarian? No? okay, ill have it." and "wont it fall down cause of gravity?". "this is not what i ordered"
- "how long did you do shisha for?"
- "zig a zig ah"
- 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. JC's over.

that's all there is, there isn't anymore.
but the memories, each of them, still vivid and captured, all with me. (:

i couldnt have asked for a better 2 years, with everything we went through. the good, and the bad. the predicted, and the unexpected. the laughter, and the tears.
the love.

50 years down the road, no matter where i am, im going to look back and smile. its been a helluva journey. and im glad it was alongside you guys, in NJC.

here's to us. the batch of 2007. mainstream and IP. its been fun.

"the national dream, fulfilled for all to see"

its been a long road.

2007-10-24T06:05:00.000-07:00

Oh my goodness Sum. I just read your entry and a huge realisation dawned upon me. I owe you. (:

we are given nothing beyond our capacity.

This is a quote i used to firmly believe in, not too long ago. Alot has changed since NJ's become a part of my life, and i somehow, forgot this little cliche that has always made me a little more, optimistic. A lot used to hinge on these seven words for me. id go around consoling people with these words and yet, i forgot about them myself for the past two years.

I can feel the change in the wind right now
Nothing's in my way
And they're not gonna hold me down no more
no they're not going to hold me down

'Cause I've got faith of the heart
I can do anything
I've got strength of the soul
I can reach any star
-watson russell
[cheesy i know. but its the most inspiring shit ever. haha. you guys should seriously listen to it]

Its time to place some faith in what i once believed in.

Everything's going to be fine.

Ill see you guys after the Alevels. (:

2007-10-20T12:33:00.001-07:00

im in the balcony doing differentiation and im really tired. been at math for the past 7 hours non-stop.

Let c be the number of chapters done in the TYS

dc = 0.8
dt

(: okay fine, so i made the 0.8 up but honestly. im too tired to calculate. its 0330 hrs and the rugby finals are going on. My uncle's invited his friends over and they're YELLING over every touchdown. Oh wait, the whole neighbourhood as a matter of fact, is yelling more often than not. [im not exaggerating]. and i see percy montgomery's hair flying in the wind from the corner of my eye.

i think im going to go draw the curtains. and get some earplugs. This is such a pointless entry. haha. its the only break i can take as opposed to sitting in front of the TV and staying there till the match is over.

may the best player win ~~exams~~ the game.

2007-10-18T10:00:00.000-07:00

pretty freaky i know. See, when im taking breaks from studying, my sister and i do crazy things. so this was our attempt to get one of those flying hair images. HAHA. massive failure i know but this shot came about and i swear, it's such a perfect representation of the state we're all in right now. By we, i do mean Alevel students. i love it. the shot, as in. not the state we're in.

Everything's so chaotic and edgy. I cant wait for the transition where this feeling turns to euphoria. Ive always wanted to post this image but there never was an occasion or reason to. Well, now there is.

Beautiful isn't it? i thought this picture was amazing then. now it seems like the story of my life. The fire's going to die down eventually and i just hope i dont get burnt in it.

The scars wont be pretty. Neither are they likely to fade away.

2 weeks.

2007-10-13T05:59:00.000-07:00

Haha. i know i said i wont blog until the As are over. But im really tired and i dont want to sleep because that'd mean id knock out for at least 3-4 hours.

Anyway, SHABANA, im so sorry i wont be coming tomorrow but i do hope you have a fantastic eid. Eat all you want now, and party as hard as you can because trust me, these are your last 2 months where you're going to have a decent life. (: Enjoy my share till im done with the As and then we can head down to a restaurant for our long-awaited lunch date.

I have a hunch im going to skip Graduation on Tuesday. hahahhaha. im imagining the looks of horror on your faces now, Sam and Sam, Kat, Phoebs and Zhang. There's only two more weeks and graduation's going to be an entire day of those two weeks. And im not going to go to hear a speech by our principal cause she's not going to succeed in making me emotional at all. And as for pictures, ill wait for after the As where ill look genuinely happy in the stills. dont kill me, you know i love you guys.

I guess school's really coming to an end. Its going to be weird not wearing grey anymore. Its barely a colour id like to be clad in but ive started liking it. You cant deny the fact that its somehow brought colour into our lives. [That's a paradox right there aye Mr Whitby?]

NJC, it's Not Just College.

its become alot more like home where we've built so many strong friendships, we've become like family.

LETS GREY TOGETHER. :D

2007-09-28T06:46:00.000-07:00

until, the As are over.

im not breaking any promises. :D

2007-09-25T05:35:00.000-07:00

okay, my blogging frequency is scaring me.

first day of school wasn't as festive as its usually supposed to be. i guess its the trend in JC2 where nothing's festive anymore. i mean, diwali this year's falling on the 7th of november, which is smack in the middle of the As. :( oh, speaking of which,

let me know if you're interested. its going to be good fun. mum's organising something like that for the first time ever so im really excited for her. and given the response so far, it should be pretty good. so COME if you can. its the place to BE.

coming back the point, there's not much to celebrate when you're in JC2. this completely contradicts my opening entry doesn't it? haha. ah well. results so far are a disappointment. i got in the car today and mum asked me if we got back anything and i said, with my fingers crossed that is "we'll get everything back by next week". so technically, i dint lie, i just completely conveniently stretched the truth, for her sake and mine. Eeeee. i remember coming back home in primary school eager to tell everyone my marks cause they used to be so damn good.i could say stuff like "Mom, i only minus-ed 3 marks" or "mom, i got 49/50 for math" or "i got second in class". of course there were the occasional disappointments but they never seemed as defeating as the ones that come about now.

haha. i love sumsum's entry on the options she could choose from.

inspiring.

lets see how tomorrow goes. lets all hope its a wee bit more, festive aye?

2007-09-24T07:09:00.000-07:00

its back to the grind tomorrow.

SCHOOL'S STARTING.

and this time, its for the win. (:

its been a while.

2007-09-23T00:43:00.000-07:00

i cannot believe im resurrecting this page.

let me bring you back to my first ever post[for this particular blog that is] last year which had the title "i will not shut down this blog" followed by "i solemnly promise to update, relatively regularly" in the later course of the entry.

so ryan emotionally blackmails me by reminding me of my promise [which i no doubt broke], afterwhich coincidentally, my grandad mentioned how we should never make promises and fail to deliver or under-deliver. and therefore, here i am, all guilt-ridden and blogging on a blog which ive reopened for the fourth time. im hopeless, you'd agree with me by now.

The prelims just ended. We'll save how they went for later. Afterall, ill be updating "relatively regularly". Post prelims have been good. Slacking in amazingly therapeutic amounts. We did the whole airport-sleepover again. The whole world fails to understand how we derive joy out of it but honestly, its really quite joyous when you've got your friends with you and you dont have a care in the world, at that point of time.

we forgot that we were Alevel students, intentionally. talking about things un-academic was refreshing. we realised we still had a life. we learnt that Muslims rolled rice into balls when they broke fast. we talked about deep-er things.

cheap middle-eastern food in a restaurant where waitresses were almost non-existant and appeared at the ring of an imaginary bell. offered tea in the most unglam of accents. almost became hookers. a first SUCCESSFUL sunrise escapade. failure to complete yet another movie. unglam pictures. omg. VERY unglam pictures, reason why this is going to be a picture-less post. surprisingly little gossip. i think we've seriously gone past the whole we-indulge-in-gossip stage.

ahh, i enjoyed every second of the sleepless night. (:

oh, catching up with darshini and clarinda before that was perfect as well. subway always makes my day, adding to that free cookies. its really an advantage with you get an indian who's preparing your sub. hahaha. da thought RSVP was "reply soon very privately". ill never forget that. we laughed so hard it made me cry. bus-ed to dash's house after that and we spent most of the time playing the guitar, eating masala popcorn and reliving memories of times which seem so distant now.

pool with scott, christian, rachel, sandra and rick was good. and the arcade. haha. we blew twenty bucks each on DDR. its been ages. spent eight hours there. i loved spending time with you guys again. i missed it so much.

post-prelims have been absolutely fantastic. i wish it dint have to end. but after having so much fun, im somewhat motivated to give everything ive got for the As. ive got roughly a month left. afterwhich, ill be doing what i did across these past 2 days, everyday, for eight months. if the As go well, the eight months, and after will be bliss. if they dont, they'd be as good as hell considering how weighed down id be with guilt and regret. there's no way id like to live in that way.

the one month countdown's begun. (: i like how i make it sound dramatic. ive got "Final Countdown" playing in my head with us in grey running on a green hill with wind in our hair in slow motion.

gosh, i cant believe im saying this but i actually really missed blogging which probably explains the length of this entry.

ryan, stop blackmailing me. i guess im back then. haha.

you china girl you.

2007-02-13T04:35:00.000-08:00

shubha: [points to the upper mask] Zhang! what're you doing over there?!
zhang : im above you.
shubha: you racist bitch.

friends, we are still discriminated against in the most brutal of ways.

for what its worth, her last line was,

zhang : omg! hahahahhahahahahahahhahahha.

to us

2007-02-09T00:08:00.000-08:00

some week its been. its funny how emotions are held in bottled up for the longest time and then just one small, relatively insignificant event can instigate the outburst of everything, in the most unglamourous of ways mind you. whatever it is, it really helps to have your friends by your side. and then i guess you sit and lament about how terribly childish you were and you can't help but feel silly the way you reacted but then again, that's what friends are for. (:

at least that "once-in-a-year-sucky-week" is over and things should definately be looking up from now on. im sorry sam, im not going to make this post as emo as i promised to because honestly, im feeling pretty high-ish now. the emo-ness ain't just going to flow. and i just read your entry which made me laugh more then reflect. so there. haha.

i havnt been blogging in the longest time.

i think this world lacks genuinity. im not saying im the most genuine of people or i mean everything i say, its just that i met these four people on monday, briefly, had dinner with them on tuesday, and sent them off on wednesday. three days, out of which i was with them for barely four hours, made me realise how superficial things around us are. these four random people made me so impressed by them. here's the catch, they're pakistani. hahahah. not that im into the whole political shit, i honestly don't give a damn if they killed my long-gone ancestors because whatever happened in the past was there. its our generation that counts and if nothing seems to be wrong when we're face-to-face, it's all good on my side.

anyways, these guys dint make any effort whatsoever to impress, or to appear humble or anything. its just in their nature. it really hit a chord for all of us. the NTU MUN people, and kat and me (: i din't see the purpose of getting us aquainted until just yesterday when i realised how genuine they really were during their short stay.

its genuinity that makes all of us act and react. it's what really matters in any relationship at the end of the day. it makes us feel secure. it sure as hell makes me feel secure. the feeling that i can count on someone for being there for me, the feeling that i am confidient im not being cheated in anyway. that roseate feeling of security. its all we need isn't it?

alright. this post's more emo than i said it'd be. haha. whatever.

on the brighter side, valentines day is coming. god, this year's going to suck because of YOU. you better come back for a holiday soon cause i miss you ALL like nobodies business. i got the snailmail. it din't help at all. haha.

the chickens are calling. don't you dare never listen. !!!

boys are cheats and liars. ;)

2007-01-18T00:41:00.000-08:00

When school starts to get boring and dull, girls ALWAYS find a way to make it a tad more exciting. (: for the whole of today, we sang our new found favourite song.

Boys are cheats and liars,
they're such a big disgrace.
They will tell you anything to get to second BASEball,
baseball he thinks he's gonna score.
If you let him go all the way then you are a HOR... ticulture
studies flowers,
geologist studies rocks.
The only thing a guy wants from you
is a place to put his COCK... roaches,
beetles, butterflies and bugs.
Nothing makes him happier than a giant pair of JUG...
glers and acrobats, a dancing bear named Chuck.
All guys really want to do is - forget it, no such luck.

i swear i thought everyone was supposed to POSE. haha.

anyhow, the dance party was real good. it gave the acsians a preeety good impression of NJC so that's a score i suppose. mr whitby's down with chicken pox so that made us go hysterical. hope it doesnt hurt too much. get well soon mr whitby! and take your time to come back to school. we don't want the pox going around now do we? (:

ive got my regular date with wentworth miller tonight at 2230 so im all excited about that right now. and the best part is that it just keeps getting better. haha.

dance practices have started and we're doing this very, differnt concept i guess. i have a hunch its going to be excellent. the J1's and IPs are extremely enthusiastic and our batch seems to be getting along fine. they're really hard working and positive towards the dance, especially those of the other races. but then again, like russell peters said, we're all going to be mixed one day, chinese and indian being the majority. its all good so far ain't it?

michelle. im so happy for you. woman, you're going to be fine. i know you well enough to have the confidence that whatever you choose and do, you'll make the right decision. don't have any doubts. who cares what others say. its your life, and you have to do what you think is best for you. you gotta be selfish in this world sometimes and do things for YOURSELF. and besides, you're such a sweetheart you completely deserve this. if something doesn't feel right, it probably isn't and believe me you'll naturally know what to do then. and im always here for you. (:
oh. im calling you for the details, tonight. hahha. <3

ah well. ive updated. that gives me another 1 month clearance before you guys start complaining again. hahaha. im just kidding. i really do need to rant about my exciting life events and oh-so-random happenings more often. so until then, take care and,

go study la.

wild boys!

2007-01-10T19:29:00.000-08:00

The wild boys are calling on their way back from the fire
In august moons surrender to a dust cloud on the rise
Wild boys fallen far from glory, reckless and so hungered
On the razors edge you trail because theres murder (murder)
By the roadside in a sore afraid new world

They tried to break us, looks like theyll try again

Wild boys.. never lose it
Wild boys.. never chose this way
Wild boys.. never close your eyes
Wild boys.. always shine

You got sirens for a welcome, theres bloodstain for your pain
And your telephone been ringing while youre dancing in the rain
Wild boys wonder where is glory where is all you angels
Now the figureheads have fell?
And lovers war with arrows over secrets they could tell

They tried to tame you, looks like theyll try again

- duran duran

HAHA!

2007-01-06T22:17:00.000-08:00

courtesy of zhang, latest update on my life.

happy new year guys.
PS: you asked for it. (:

enlightenment. (:

2006-12-21T01:55:00.000-08:00

ive finally gotten internet access and am blogging after ages. delhi is great and so is all the company ive been in. everyone here is the same. it feels nice and homely. i don't even want to think of getting back to school now although i cant deny the fact that its going to reopen in a matter of few days whether i like it or not. :P the house warming ceremony for which i came to india in teh first place is on saturday and i absolutely cant wait. my sari's been stiched and its gorgeous. (:(:(: im pretty darn excited.

im living with my uncle right now and there's this girl there whose 18 and she's a helper there. my grandmum, mum and i were randomly talking when we asked her what she plans to do in the further years. she said she'd probably get married soon and continue her job either at our household or another, depending on the situtation to come. it hit me then at how different lifestyles and upbringings can be. we all know that there are many different people in the world but actually talking to her, i sensed so much maturity and the responsibilities she holds towards her family completely shone through. i don't know where ill be 3 years down the road but she knows EXACTLY what she wants and needs to do. i felt somewhat guilty suddenly. i don't quite understand god's concept over how he can make such differences come about and let people go through with them until they die.

we were driving to jaipur where we passed many small villages and you won't believe how bad some of the living conditions are. you see little children on the roads barefooted, some helping their scrawny fathers in fields doing manual hard work. we stopped at 6 villages asking for a toilet but none of them had any. they suggested we take care of our respective businesses in the fields. it'd also add as nourishment for the crops. we found it quite funny then but now that i think about it, its all so basic for them isn't it? when you look at a child, 10 years perhaps, on the street, he has no family but yet knows exactly what to do. he's street smart, and knows how to lead a life withough the maximum comfort he can get given his current situation.

i guess with these given living conditions and financial difficulties, god also gave us humans, all of us, the greatest gift of all which helps each of us to survive in any place we are born in and are destined to spend our lives, the gift of adaptibility.

with that, we should be alright. and for us lucky people who are able to read this right now [due to the ability to access the WWW etc.] we should really be thankful. i should really be thankful for the luxuries and comforts i am able to receive. coming to places like india and egypt, across the years in fact, it's given me this drive and motivated me to work harder so that i can make a difference, if not to the world or any particular country, at least to the people i love most.

god bless and have a merry merry christmas and a happy new year. ill see you guys soon.

2006-12-12T06:21:00.000-08:00

im back from egypt and im leaving for india tomorrow! (:
i can't wait!

ive been to the sahara desert!

2006-12-03T00:15:00.000-08:00

Eeeee. my tagboard hasn't been working since thursday. :(
anyhow, thank you so much for all those smses, emails, phone calls, friendster testimonials, surprises, presents and love from all those who took the time and effort to wish me. YAY. each one of you made me smile. im finally 17!. HAHA.

anyhow, went to the SAHARA DESERT yesterday! ohmylord, its GORGEOUS beyond words.

No, that is not the river, its the OASIS! and thats a picture of one hundreth of it. im not exaggerating.

oh. btw, doesn't this look like the OC? its a club in egypt IN THE SAHARA DESERT. at least the "touched" desert that is.

thats us on a falooka which is a open air boat. "where's my rum aye?"

OOF. 2 SUVs with a police car in front escorting us to the oasis playing "danger zone".

nothing beats the excitement.

and its still getting better.

egypt. (:

2006-11-28T23:39:00.000-08:00

WELCOME TO EGYPT. (:

REUNITED. god i missed them.

that's cocacola in arab. (:

back in singapore where my uncle was just being himself. (:

egypts awesome.
i wan't to move here. haha. its so amazing. this place has no clenliness whatsoever, poverty and they don't have alot of things singapore does BUT they have winter, billboards, pyramids, empty land and the people are absolutely great.

as you sit in the car, and if they by chance see you looking at them or observing them or whatever, they don't just look away as is the monotonous pattern in singapore but they actually smile and wave back. NOT ONLY THAT. they even COMMUNICATE with you in the form of hand guestures and winks and genuine greetings. they're all so happy. the random people on the streets make the place so homely. YAY. i love it. oh, they have human traffic lights and the people here don't drive in lanes. the road's pretty exciting, i guess not if you get involved in an accident where you're brutally crushed between two huge trucks but otherwise, its not too dangerous.

And the music. OMG. everyshop you enter or gulf air or street music, it sounds magical. havn't really done much sightseeing yet but this place is really something. My birthday's finally coming tmr and we'll be going on the NILE on a cruise. (: there'll be BELLYDANCING. im beyond excited.

(:(:(: EGYPT is THE place to be. :D

i need to enter bimbo mode for the next 10 seconds.
the guys here are omfg-ly gorgeous. hahahaha. there's not a single bad looking one ive seen so far. perfect complexion with the perfect eyes, clean shaven and intense yet carefree looking features and they best part is that they're really friendly.

okay, ive stopped salivating.
ill try and get something back for you guys. hahaha. we were pretending to steal at this really nice hotel at giza.

i don't wanna come back. yet. :(